jinghui

2008-10-24T21:07:00.003+08:00

i have done .
nothing fucking wrong , to you .
blame it on your fxuking girlfriend for sneering at me .
your boy boy ?
dots lah horh .
your boy boy then keep your fxuking guards on if you think people want him .
and blame it on yourself partially for what has happened now .
i give you the colds ?
blame me meh . blame yourself .

you got back with your girlfriend 1 day after i broke up with you .
and after your fxuktard girlfriend sneered at me which got me pissed .
you told naz that
you are going to keep a distance away from me
but still your feelings won't fade .
GO FXUK SHIT LAH HORH .

i'm not xiaomeimeis who falls for sweet talks
hugs and whatever fxuking thing .
i'm not someone who falls and stupidly believe you will wait .
wait . wait for my fxuking funeral lah .

i'm disgusted by you .
very disgusted .
you have patch with your girlfriend and tells another girl you love her .
hypocritic person .

and since you agree with what she said
and thinks it wakes me up .
you can jolly well , break off all contacts and
dump yourslef into a pile of shit .

cause i'm not as pathetic as you both
who just need girlfriend and boyfriend .
it woke me up . sai lah
or maybe it did .
it woke me up to see what kind of person you are .
holy shits .

ohh and to add .
thank god that we only stead for 22hrs .
if not .
i think i'll regret even more .

2008-10-24T12:51:00.000+08:00

累了真的很累了
):

2008-10-23T17:01:00.003+08:00

another paper gone ! :D
thank god the paper was easy !
arbo i sure &^%^$##!#@@
so my 3 hours of sleep and tears are WORTH LAHH !
but i swear i'm never gonna sleep late during exams .
CHAO TIRING ):
and tml's paper is emaths 1
{ inserts worry face }
gonna do revision and sleep early :x
arbo , no sleep = die .
8AM LEHH THE PAPER .
I'M LIKE FREAKING USED TO WAKING UP LATE ALRDY !
{ inserts inserts upset }

oh well . 1 more week .
just have to lun for 1 more week !
and it will be over !
go jinghui ! ):

2008-10-23T08:38:00.006+08:00

updates !

met linda , junsi and wendy to go town yesterday .

town to ~~gossip~~ ~~slack~~ STUDY !

lawl :x

sounds a bit ironic rights .

your head xD we did study okay !

wendy managed to find a job at cine .

and and the shop she is going to work at have 2 nice watches !

i tell you ,

its chao nice ! * to me lahh * ;p

and 1 is only at $18 . $18 LEHH ! CHEAP ALRDY .

but i'm still deciding to buy or not :x

and and zinc has a new nice bag ! CHAO NICE xD

* mummy mummy ! ~ *

kayys , fine =='

studied at xing wang cafe and then bk .

study till around 8pm

and then went homey :D

and today is pure paper 1 :x

pray pray that its gonna be easy ._.

cause i've sacrifice my sleep and tears for it yesterday night / today morning

i know crybaby =='

what you expect . TIRED AND STRESS OKAY ! :X

it srlsly better be easy .

i tank coffee just to keep awake while revising ._.

okays . i think i'm done for updates x)

byes peepos !

{/edit}

i'm looking for a nice and simple background !

and i'm asking for HELP . :p

ohhs ohhs and i love my daddy very very much :D

i love you pap ! ♥

2008-10-21T20:07:00.006+08:00

1 subject down ! few more to go !time seriously flies when its exams .
* it will be the only time when time has wings * ;p
LAWL :x

a little more update this time .
well , can say its a late update :x
study date with dearest lindaaaa ! * see no more lida *
i shall just use pictures to describe .
* smart people use pictures to describe *
LAWL

and that is what we called .
STUDY
lawl ! hahas !
can't help it . she is linda x)

okays ! thats all for update !
tml no school .
MUAHAHA !
SLEEP ! :x your head .
i've gotta wake up early . tuition at 10.30
ayes . no life :x

AHH ! BYES PEEPOS ! :D

{/edit}
i'm gonna have the same skin as my dearest beany !
her's will be pink
mine will be purple .
LAWL
teehees :B

2008-10-21T10:56:00.002+08:00

the most important paper is today .
which will be commencing in like 4 hours time .... ( ? )
LAWL ! OKAYS . fine -.-
i need a new blogskin asap .
so i shall pester dear ah si .
since she complain on her blog so much that
at home shake leg = mundane life
TEEHEE ;x
and today wendy and ah si is going to help me pay for something !
all the way to bugis .
thanks ladies !
i owe you one ;p
but the thing is WORTH okay !
LAWL cause its pretty xDD

kayys , i shudd stop .
i sound like a dumb blonde =='
LAWL .

* random random *
anyways i shudd pester daddy to refurnish the whole house
okay , maybe just certain rooms .
since he shifted everything in the study room .
thanks to the feng shui master or smthing =='
and that guy still suggest me to give away all my soft toys !
and you know what reason ?!
he says those toys possessed those * ahems * kind of aura .
he said ' got yin qi '
siao lang keng .
i sleep so long nothing okay !
throw away my bears , throw you out of my house ;p
he's jealous i have many soft toys !
NEH NEH NI POO POO
LAWL !

scully i throw them out .
then he wait outside and pick all of them home .
xDD
nehneh lah . die also won't want to throw any (:

and now my study table is facing a window .
and yesterday , my dad thought i was laughing to the people from the oppsite blocks !
cause i was sitting at the table laughing .
== fyi : i did not !

okays . i think i've officially gone crazy ;p
ENGLISH PAPER IN ANOTHER 3 HRS TIME !
TODDLES PEEPOS !

2008-10-20T17:34:00.002+08:00

ONE PAPER DOWN ;x
many more to go ......
LAWL
THANKS CHERYL AND LINDA FOR COMPANY !
they don't have paper today .
but they WOKE UP JUST TO ACCOMPANY ME AND TO SCHOOL SMEMORE !
where do you even get such friends mansxzxzxz x)
teehee :x

thanks to both of them
i managed to de-stress .
mei you both of them i'll die :x
我爱死你们了! teehee

and the paper was ..
manageable .
well lost a few marks also :x
AND TML IS ENGLISH :x
jiayous peepos ! the most impt subject :x
fail = 完蛋

2008-10-16T20:52:00.002+08:00

Os science prac today ;x
its like ni ma ma derh HARD ._.
feel like screwing the paper :B
well not literally .
and lockup session was like ....
okays . idk what to post liaos :x

okie dokey . here will do .
pray that upcoming papers will be easier :x
arbo i can go screw myself
or stand outside MOE building and get arrested for slandering :B

*add add *
seems like someone got the taste of her own medicine
wells , thats what you get for spreading rumors .
karma lahdey .
teehee :B
heng i never try and do anything funny to you or
label you anything .
arbo i'll be pot calling kettle black !
i'll just sit back and watch .
karma . karma x)
LAUGHS *

2008-10-15T21:17:00.002+08:00

nothing get better than this x)

2008-10-13T21:33:00.003+08:00

some dedication to do .
not nice one . but a fact to certain people or someone
your not miss gorgeous .
neither are you the next young next top model or tyra banks .
you don't have pretty doe's eyes , sharp mouth nor the perfect full lips .
you don't judge or in fact , you are not in a position to judge .
i'm 160cm , weighing 65 .
yes , my bmi is not good .
but there are 3 reasons to it and the doctor's prove it too .
1) i'm short and will not grow anymore .
2) i have a broad shoulder .
3) i have heavy bone mass .
these are the reasons why i look stout .
so , you have to fxuking rights to come and say that i am fat .
even if i am fat .
what are you gonna do bout it ?
shove slimming pills down my throat ?
drag me for lipo ?
make me run round the school ?
it has nothing to do with you .
when i heard bout what ~~comment~~ gossip was passed bout me .
i was friggin pissed .
frankly , the gossip was a blow to my self esteem .
fyi : i have very low self esteem when it come to apperances .
i wanted to confront you , wanted to call you mean names .
and after much thoughts ,
i wouldn't want to be like YOU .
so i'm not gonna call you a cunt in a wardrobe , fxuking bixth or whore in the post .
and the stupid gossip you said
' she suffered a bad blow from a breakup thats why she is this size now '
IS FAKE .
the last breakup was in sec 2 .
and some facts for you to know
1) i WILL NEVER binged .
2) he wasn't someone i would hurl myself into sadness
so just shut your trap .

i dare to admit i'm chubby .
so ? whatcha gonna do ?
kill me ? lock my house ?
you did better do your prayers daily for that
i did not scream at you today / slapped you / find trouble after school
best of all , pray that i didn't label you and write out your name
i don't like people to insult me / spread gossips .
and on the account of _______ and _________ ,
i'll not scream at you . yet

and to end it all .
there is something i want to shove it down your throat
and you have to swallow it . regardless you like it or not .
i am fat and i'll slim down . just wait and watch .
wait till the day we receive Os results .
watch who's the one laughing at who's size and probably results .
but even if i lose to you , in the end i'll still be the one laughing .
cause i've something that you don't .
i've got REAL friends .
unlike you , not knowing what people are saying behind your back .
and i think i've a better character than you .
you shudd be under the catergory of non-authentic personality .
yeh , it suits you like a tee .

so you take the shit facts right into your brain .
and shut your trap .
otherwise , i won't be kind anymore and
i assure you , i'll create a mountain out of a mole hill .

and for people who hates me .
you are not oblidge to read this .

2008-10-08T18:59:00.002+08:00

hmms . okays
really short update .
linda's birthday is great .
i love my girlfs !!
plus clique , pearlyn and celeste ;D
and ...

school is a bitch , fxuking bitch :x
and so is O levels .
i'm so gonna get sued for slandering xP

okays . BYES PEEPOS !

2008-10-04T21:12:00.003+08:00

i don't like gving up so easily on certain things .
i believe that we can do something bout it .
both of you are tired i know .
but why give up when there is still a slight ray of hope ?
i've tried talking to both of you .
i've tried ignoring .
now , i've even talked to you both in tears .
its up you both of you already .
it hurts me , a lot to see you both quarrel .
the last squabble , i've teared
this , i've cried my eyes out .
i really do hope you both can solve it .
and i'm waiting for news later .
hopefully ,
a good one .

2008-09-28T12:18:00.004+08:00

okays .
i've gotten over the moody period .
i swear . didn't know what the freaking hell went over me .
i guess its the big P .
mood swings and attitude problems during the big P .
* hi fives linda *

and now . byebye mood swings
hellos crazy o' jinghui :D

few more weeks till Os .
so tensed !
and excited ! cause just can't wait for the fun filled activites with my
dearest laydehs , crazy woman and the clique :D
and not forgetting intensive holiday work ! * groannnssss *
plus plus overseas trip * hopefully includes huge make over *
and my sweet 16 :D
okays i know its still like 1 mth plus
but hey . SWEET 16 !
who the hell can wait !

well before all these activites .
gotta stirve and work for Os .
okays ! gotta run !

ALL THE BEST LUCK FOR N LEVEL TAKERS TML !
ESP THE CLQUE !
XOXOXO !

{/edit}
oh yes ! like celeste said
we are gonna open a blogshop eoy x)
when its officially opened ,
do watch out for whats coming in !
* we can swear with our hearts that no skinnies or nf shorts *

and johnathon and some peeps
asked me to join them for a swim .
not going cause i'm still scared there will be slight leakage ! :x
okays too much info .
BAHHH . byes !

2008-09-25T22:59:00.002+08:00

been studying these few days .
study with linda at mp library .
quite a condusive place to study .
chiong chiong :x
and i saw mrs song ! been freaking long since i last seen her (: * grins *
god knows what's gonna happen next few weeks :x
I'M BEAT . DEAD TIRED .
i really feel like giving up sometimes ):
but i wanna be kicking up a standing ovation on the day of getting the results !
like oh my tian :(
so much to study . average amount of time but so little energy .
school is srlsly draggin and taking up most of my energy ._.
waking up dead early and then get my ass to school .
and blah blah blah .
shitty life . all thanks to Os .
and if i don't pass my shitty exams .
i swear . i'll wanna screw MOE upside down .

okays . i think .
i'll stop here .
before MOE screws me and sue me for slandering :x
LAWL
cheryl had gotten approval from her mum to stay .
wendy is still deciding .
junsi most likely not .
linda beggin her dad .

well . screw my freaking life ._.
* leave out my family plus some great times *

WHO THE HELL IS GONNA MUG WITH ME THIS FRIDAY NIGHT ! T.T

i'm going into a mood swing soon .
i need a hug ! (>'',)>

yeesh . forget it .
nights peepos .

2008-09-24T23:10:00.004+08:00

short short updates !

muggin these few days .

so there isn't much things actually .

mugged with linda , cheryl and celeste .

celeste helped me a lot with poa .

thanks woman !

also mummy and daddy allowed linda ( maybe ) cheryl , junsi and wendy to stayover !

stayover on friday night * grins *

to mug for the upcoming exams !

mummy and daddy is the love yo ! :D

okays . took some pics also :p

will post em' !

well better run . toodles !

weeks to exams ! JIAYOUS ALL (:

2008-09-17T22:05:00.003+08:00

i'm back from parkway :D
went parkway with cheryl BB :DDD
this time i was late xD
anways . we had our dinner at LJS
and then moved on to our main purpose .....
STARBUCKS !
its like our love ~ xD
with just 12bucks . we are full , happy and contented :D
plus free entertainment pleaseee ~
the free entertainment is srlsly hilarious xDD
plus i did a bit of .... POA * WOWS AT JINGHUI * LAWL
heeee ~ who cares . :x
walked around parkway and we decided to buy MANY MANY THINGS .
ROFLS .
and i saw 2 teachers ! whom i shall not name ._.
cause both teaches me and i suck at both their subs .
and its gonna be Os soon ....
oh wells :x
i'll do well , eventually .... ;p
we intended to buy these ...

- cotton on black shoes for school ---- $19.90
- authentic GUESS? wallet ---- $70

the rest of the things we intend to buy is
converse shoes .
cheryl is gonna buy peach coloured sneakers
while i get purple
and we shall switch :D
who needs a boyfie to make you happy and switch things
when you have a fan-ta-bulous girlf :D
I LOVE CHERYL ANG SHI YA MANY MANY ! xDDD

i shall find a way to get my freaking $20 for that pair of shoes x)
and also ...
i'm going save $20 a week for 3 and a half weeks for the GUESS? wallet
its so darn pretty that its worth going to starve just for that wallet x)

okays . i guess thats all for updates !
gonna study with celeste tml !
yays !!! :DDD
POA AGAIN .... claps ! LAWL
i'm so gonna NEED to pass and obtain many many As
cause for each A i get i will get $100 from my grandpa and $300 from my uncle !
YAYS !
SHOPPING ! WOOTS !
even if i don't ,
i'm obtain a WONDERFUL CERT :D and daddy will be happy ! (:
blahhh ! i better stop blabbering :x
BYES PEEEPOOOS !

2008-09-14T11:19:00.003+08:00

okays ! the quiz i promised yankai to do !
here we go ! :D

1.The person who tagged/pass you is?
` yankai

2. Your relationship with him/her?
` brotha ! and pubor ! xD

3. Your five impressions of him/her ?
` hmms ...
- artistic
- hen ai mei ! xD * the fringe *
- shen jing bing ;p
- audition siao
- nice person :D
* he's gonna kill me :x *

4. The most memorable things he/she has done for you
` walk me home all the way to the lift when he stayed near me last time x)

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you
` hmms . hard sehs this question ....
idk ! cause he always disturbs me ! xD

6. If he/she becomes your lover you will?
` lawl . i don't think its possible :D

7. If he/she became your lover, he/she has to improve on?
` .... wo bu zhi dao ;p

8. If he/she became your enemy, you will?
` ehhs .... issit possible in the first place ?

9. If he/she became your enemy, the reason will be?
` idk lah dey ! xP

10.The most desired thing you want to do for him/her is?
` wack him :D * woops :x *

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
` he's a great brotha and friend to hang with :D

12. How do you think the people around you will think about you?
` errs ... jiaowey and shen jing bing ?
* the usual ones always call me jiaowey queen ==' *

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
` i love my craziness ! and maybe being blur ? O.o

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
` lack of self confidence :p and short tempered during ang x.x

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
` ehhs ... a much more self confident me (:

16. For people who care and like you, say something to them.
` thank you peepooos ! ily guys ! :DDD

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people ( but i'm not gonna pass * lazy * )

1 ) wendy
2 ) junsi
3 ) linda
4 ) cheryl
5 ) pearlyn
6 ) yankai
7 ) zhongting
8 ) irwin
9 ) qinghui
10 ) jason

18. Who is number 6 having a relationship with?
` no one .

19. Is number 9 male or female?
` male

20. If number 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
` great . cause you get loads of funny things from them x)

21. What is number 2 studying about?
` ehhs ... school stuff ?

22. What kind of band does number 8 like?
` mostly english bands

23. Does number 1 have any siblings?
` yepps

24. Will you woo no. 3?
` lawl ! if i were a guy yes . but now no :D

25. How about number 7?
` errrs . no x)

26. Is number 4 single?
` no . but not officially attached x)

27. What is the surname of number 5?
` chua

28. What's the hobby of number 10?
` one of it is audition x)

9. Does number 5 and 9 get along well?
` errs no . cause they don't even know each other xP

30. Where is number 2 studying at?
` bgss .

31. Talk something casually about number one.
` she is motherly . LAWL xD i love her lah dey :DD

32. Where does number 9 live at?
` bedok * can't recall * xP

33. What colour does number 4 like?
` pink . soon enough blue x)

34. Are number 5 and number 1 best friends?
` heee . noppes . they don't know each other ;p

35. Does number 1 have any pets?
` errs . no ? * but i recall she seems to have hamsters *

36. Is number 7 the sexiest person in the world?
` LAWL . i have no comments xD

37. What is number 6 doing now?
` must be audition-ing xDD

i'm not gonna pass the quiz :x
do it if you feel like . TAADAAA FINISH !

2008-09-12T23:13:00.003+08:00

okays !
i'm back from outside :D
met cheryl at tm .
i swear ubi sucks :x
* no offence to ppl staying there *
well . cheryl will know why xD
after lunch , went to meet mel , ah jie and fik at plaza sing .
watched ' my sassy girl '
i rate it GREAT .
one of the best movies i've ever watched .
watch it with emotions ! you will be thrown off !
for those who are nuts bout romance flick .
watch it .
its really wonderful . teared a bit too :D
after movie went to pc bunk .
saw A_________ . like LAUGHS OUT LOUD .
I SWEARRRR ! xDDD
teehees :B
reached homey , bathe and now here i am ! x)
okays . thats all for updates ! xDD

you .
are my memory .
nothing else anymore .
thanks for the wonderful times .
but i don't think i know you anymore .
who i loved , has already been long gone .
you just look like him , same name all that .
but the character , SUCKS .
now i wait no more . i give up .
i thought giving up would hurt like fuck .
but being able to give up on you with a small smile across my face .
is one of the wonders i know .
yes it does hurt abit , with little tears .
but those tears ,
are for the memories , for the laughter we had
but not for you .
like people say ' its better to love before than never to had loved at all '
my life now ,
family relations are improving .
friendships are still on going , with many loves
i don't see a need to wait painfully for you anymore .
cause i love you ... no more (:
maybe you were the guy .
the one , but a missed chance .
a cruel twist of fate .
but its okay .
i'll learn to take things with a stride .
starting everything anew ,
setting my priorities right .
and i guess my life , will never include the you now .
well .
with all that said .
goodbye , my love .

2008-09-12T13:41:00.005+08:00

FRIDAY ! MWAHAHAS !
the day i'm always looking forward too xDDD
okays okays .
first thing first .
i must .... thank my daddy !
daddy spent $97 bucks on something to motivate me :D
MOTIVATE !!! GO GO GO ! xD
THANKS DADDY !! i love you many many !
* its gonna be my precious and only ah jie and me can use it *
* neh neh ni poos poos ! * :x

going for lunch with cheryl girlfie !
i love you girlfie ! i thought i was gonna rot at home :x
other girlfies are busy .
oh wells . its friday (:
a day for them to go with their boyfies (:
after lunch maybe joining mel and ah jie for movie .
' my sassy girl ' .
still unsure of going or not .
see how :x
aites thats all for updates !

5 WEEKS 3 DAYS TO Os !

2008-09-10T14:22:00.006+08:00

hey peeepoooos ! :DDD

updates x)

well , actually not really .

not gonna write bout what happened during 1 year anni with girlfies .

cause its ... A LOT . YES A LOT .

read their blogs yeh ^^V

all i wanna say is 1 year cele was great .

i love you girls . always (:

simple . but it means alot :DD

there ! my darlings :DD

no one can replace them !

not even their replica twins can replace them !

love ya babes ! ♥

well i got back my prelims results .

not really very good .

time to work harder jinghui !

go go go !

1 mth more ! OMG

must jiayous ! gambette !

i'm off to study ! byes peepos !

[/edit]

i need a new blogskin !

i've got the idea but i NEEEEDDDD help !

any kind soulsxzxzxz ?!

2008-08-31T18:37:00.004+08:00

errs . okays

i know i shuddn't be updating .

but i'm bored and sick of books .

so short update .

just pictures and a few words bout yesterday .

- cut hair

- cooked mac and cheese :DDD

- spent night at cousin's house

- chatted with ah si on phone :DDDDDDDDD i miss girlfs !!!

- watched hello kitty till i sleep . LOL

heehes . let picture do talking lah !

but the camera issn't reallllyyyy good .

so some are like very ... tsk .

okays w/e ...

you make me feel like a bitch ._.

2008-08-26T21:11:00.003+08:00

short short update .
it will be my last update .
cause prelims over = intensive = O LEVELS .
OMG O LEVELS .
WDFXZXZXZX !
ayes .
sobs sobs . so this will be my last post !
MISS ME PEEEPOOOOS ! LAWLS .
i'll be active in tagboard though .
so keep taggin people !
PS : xiao xi ! i'll resume story telling soon after Os ;p
OKAYS THATS ALL !
TATAS !
I'LL MISS EVERYONEEEEE . teehee :B
last words !
I LOVE USUAL ONES , GIRLFS , PEARLYN AND EVERYONEEEEE ! :DDDD

2008-08-22T13:11:00.006+08:00

有位男孩很爱女孩 .
把她当宝一样的棒在手里 .
下雨 , 时男孩总是把伞尽量撑在女孩的身上
而自己身上都湿了 . 却笑的很甜 .
女孩很感动 , 也喜欢男孩这样的宠着她 .
那天 , 他们一起去散步回来 , 路过一个工地 .
突然一块碎石从上面掉了下来 , 男孩赶紧用身体包住女孩 .
可突然地 , 男孩将女孩的身体转过 .
来自己倒在地上 , 女孩重重的摔在他身上 .
而石块正好砸在女孩的额头 , 血慢慢地流了出来 .
女孩哭着跑了回家 , 她真的很失望 ...
男孩打了她好多电话 , 她没接就把手机关了 .
把自己关在房间里痛哭 , 直到被敲门声惊醒 .
她妈妈告诉她男孩被一根铁筋刺穿了肺部 , 失血过多离开了人世 .
她疯了一样地跑去医院 , 男孩躺在白色地病床上手里紧紧地握着手机 .
上面写的这样一条信息 : ' 亲爱的 , 当我看到地上的铁筋时 ,
我已经没有办法为你挡住石头了. 亲爱的, 痛嘛 ? '
女孩抱着男孩的尸体痛哭着.
好好珍惜你爱的人 , 不要等到失去了才来珍惜 .

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boy and girl were best friends since high school .
they loved each other .
both know but didn't become a couple
as they were afraid that their friendship would fall if their r/s failed
on the day of graduation ,
girl tells boy happily that she has been accepted by an overseas college and
she will be leaving tml .
but deep down inside , girl was unwilling to leave boy .
boy was happy for her . but also unwilling to see her go .
boy decides to take girl out for dinner .
to celebrate their graduation and girl's good news .
that night on the way home ,
they met with an accident . both were knocked out .
boy wakes up few days later , he found himself in the hospital .
received the news that girl died .
girl passed away while he was in coma .
it was raining as if the heavens were crying too .
boy ran in the storm to girl's grave and cried .
girl's parents passed him girl's diary .
and in the diary she wrote
' i've loved boy all these years and i'm unwilling to leave boy for collage tml .
hopefully boy wouldn't forget me when i'm not with him for the next few years .
and i wonder would boy love me still when i return .
i know i will still love boy even till the day i die . '
boy whispered to the grave ' i'll never forget you . and never will i stop loving you '
如果她没有放弃他也没失去什么
因为他知道她会永远爱着他 .

2008-08-21T23:32:00.003+08:00

我不知道你要什么
我也不知道为什么我还是那么爱你
想要放弃却放不下
想要把你和过去给忘了但又舍不得.
that message .
brought up the guilt in me again ,
i know i could have said earlier .
i know i should have , and i should have cherished it more than how much i cherish before .
可能我现在只能看着你走 ?

2008-08-20T19:17:00.003+08:00

- there is a point of time , when you step back and say its time to stop .

yes , i know i'm suppose to study .
but c'mon i sick of it already .
i reek of words . maybe now i reek of history .
smelling like hitler or stalin .
i wanna bomb a country !
hehs . probably some country that has no one , so no one will be injured .
then again . i would bomb an unknown island .
cause thats the only place where no one lives .
i shall go make my order from blah blah country .
that is willing to provide me 50 cents per bomb .
* snickers * thinks again , no one will =='
okays forget it . i'm rubbishing .
not in a very cheery mood .
so i'm here posting and posting like there is no tml .
thanks linda for hearing me out just now (:
hmms , thats all for now .
tatas (:

ohhs and some pictures taken few days ago [;

2008-08-20T14:59:00.005+08:00

ITS ALIVEEEEEE ~
MY COM IS BACK ! :DDDDDDDDDDD
com was down few days ago .
actually round 1 week :x
I HAVE SOOOO MUCH TO UPDATE !
and i missed my dear baby , my comp ! xDD
okays i sound like a com addict .
but , who can resist the com !
especially with blogs , maple and msn . teehees :B

lets start with recent updates .
prelims going on . comp down .
actually nothing much as i'm or you can say everyone
is mugging real hard for exams .
went to watch movie with cousin last week .
mugged . lunched with cheryl and linda .
AND I MISS WENDY AND JUNSI !
it feels like ages since i last saw them .
all thanks to exams .
oh wells , its ending soon which means ,
I CAN GET TO SEE THEM REAL SOOOOON ~
yays ^^V

ohhs and the book .
my sister's keeper is WONDERFUL :D
but the ending was so sad that i kept crying for around half an hour or more
before procceding to twilight .
twilight is even better .
it makes you wanna go study at a far far away place ,
fall in love with a harmless charming vampire .
and live happily ever after :D
thrilling adventures in between too .
omg i feel like i'm writing book review :x
but the book is ..
exhilirating . srlsly :D

aites i guess thats all for updates .
can't exactly post out what happened throughout
those weeks i've missed out on bloggin .
aites thats all !
I LOVE GIRLFRIENDS , PEARLYN AND USUAL ONES :DDDD
teehees :D ciaos !

2008-08-15T19:35:00.003+08:00

- they'll never notice that you're gone . even though you went missing .

school was a BORE .
went home straight after exam .
com spoiled :x
but ah jie helped to fix it x)
went back to ah ma's house .
and went parkway to SHOP :D
relive stress xD
doris and doreen aunty bring me there :DD
bought tops from 77th street and a pair of slippers .
wanted to buy a esprit wallet but no new stock ,
and the old one was out of shape .
so didn't buy .
went back ah ma's house for dinner .
might be staying overnight .
who knows x)
okays . thats all .
tatas ! :D

2008-08-14T17:40:00.003+08:00

- when you thought you are over it , in fact you're not

english Os oral was ....
WAS A BREEZE MANS !
like omg larhs .
i scared i would have absolutely nothing to say .
in fact (^^)V
pawned the paper x)
i pray srsly hard that i will get disct too for english oral .
cheryl didn't come to school today .
she was sick .
recess with linda :D
chinese lesson , kena chased out of class ( again )
xD
not my our fault .
kena chased out with an ling , johnathon , jian guo and leong bing
leong bing is without fail :x
hahas ! xD
3rd / 4th time chased out with leong bing liaos .
and it is ALWAYS chinese lessons xDD
but heck larhs , since
I DONT HAVE TO TAKE CHINESE ANYMORE ;p
okays . mai hao lian liaos :x
came home after oral .
tml is english prelims :O
JIAYOUS TO ALL TAKING PRELIMS TML !
okays i shall end here :D

2008-08-13T17:40:00.003+08:00

- moving , but ain't going anywhere

updatesxzxzxzx x)
school is ... fine ?
okays . today better cause i don't have to sit at my place and rot .
._. no offence
geo . enjoyable as usual xD
cause get to disturb linda . LOL
poa is laughs and laughs and more LAUGHS .
teehee :B
and not forgetting kena yelled at by lim liang hee :x
lunch with girlfs at bench .
pon the stupid oral practice with vice prin .
ehhs . bloody hell .
idk what else to update larhs !
okays w/e i'm going crazy ;x
prelims in a few more days time !
like omgxzxzxzx LOL .
okays , tatas ! (:

2008-08-12T16:00:00.003+08:00

- shares are like the times of your life

not much to update all i have to say .
i'm just freaking happy .
i got a B3 for my chinese Os results and D for oral :DDDD
i've done daddy proud :D
thats all i'm happy bout .
and i swear i did not bribe .
D FOR DISTICTION .
for the first time in my whole entire life :DDD
wees !
i'm not hao lian-ing .
i'm just way happy that daddy is elighted / overjoyed with my results :D
so is mummy .
okays . thats all for updates today
nights nights !
i'm off to nap and wake up to study later (:

2008-08-11T22:39:00.003+08:00

- people don't die of broken hearts , they just wished they do

updates .
slept till 11 today .
daddy didn't work . so went breakfast with him .
went to bedok reservoir to find my sis and shirlee .
went bedok reservoir to find that stupid fuck spammer .
no balls one .
dare to spam my sis's blog and shirlee's blog .
still jio us go down .
end up never turn up .
make us wait somemore .
idiot sehs .
then went to bedok inter wait for cheryl and linda .
saw xiaoxi and jiayong .
went to a mac near jason's house .
slacked / study with jason , tian loke , yong ding , cheryl and linda .
stayed there till 6 .
i went home .
thanks tian loke for sending me to bus stop :D
went homey .
not in a very good mood ._.
prelims coming .
and things are like messy x.x
i think ...
i'm gonna die from flooding due to my tears .
ayes . forget it .
thats all for updates .

imy .
stupid idiotic brain of mine .
why are you stuck deep rooted in my mind .
the memories just cannot be erased .
but i'm trying .
and its .
hurting a lot .

2008-08-10T20:20:00.003+08:00

- time will heal deep wounds , just that there will be deep scars

don't wanna eleborate what happened yest .
lazy .
but thanks all for the great outing .
weihao and yi jie are assholes ! xD
nah larhs . just joking .
i love them both larhs :D
darn funny x)
very short update
and and !
great to see ziq ! i missed you mans ! :DDD
hmms , okays .
i guess thats all .
don't have the mood to do much updates .
thats all . tatas (:

i'm done some thinking .
and i guess .
its over , time for me to get over you .
its going to be a hard process .
but well .
don't all good things come to an end ?
though honestly saying
i don't know how long and when i'll forget you .
don't know when i'll stop loving you .
but thanks for good times spent .
thanks for everything .
the only thing i've regretted is that .
i did not tell you that i loved you earlier .
smthing i'll never forget .
smthing i'll regret and cry over for a very long time .

2008-08-08T18:07:00.003+08:00

- life was never fair , take it or leave it

my last update is . tuesday .
lets see , wed went for dinner with cheryl and linda .
dinner at ljs . after that went to night study .
night study was darn funny.
lucas ( orh jiao ! ) was the joke of the day .
his teeth actually xD
walked home with irwin .

on thursday ,
went night study with cheryl .
linda went to watch bball
cheryl and i went to buy dinner for yue cheng and chee wai
it rained very very heavily .
and we still walked / run from 85 to school .
see how nice we are xD
ohhs and
BIG BIG THANKYOU TO ZHAOSHING
he saved me from hunger x)
he helped me buy dinner and brought it all the way
back to the school and pass to me .
big big thanks ! you saved cheryl from hunger too xD
night study was a slack that day .
no mood to study at all .
both of us went to find irwin .
listened to songs from his lappy's itunes .
things got really hilarious when it came to
don't cha , my humps and some i forgot xD
went home with irwin .
he taught me how to speak some dialect this time .
and he also translated pussycat dolls to hokkien and chinese .
laugh until buey tahan xD

and today ~
pon school . yes i ponteng :x
sleep and used the comp .
nothing much .
but but HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY CRYSTAL
and now i'm at my cousin's house .
its boring ? ___________ ( fill in yourself )
maybe i shudd start studying .
yeh . prelims are just round the corner .
best of luck and jiayous everyone :D
okays thats all for updates .
going out tml . weees ~

some things , are meant to be remembered
some , are just meant to be forgotten .
why quarrel over matters which are so small .
what difference does it make if just forget the whole matter .
the only difference is
you have one person less to hate .
by finding and suspecting who spammed who's blog .
issn't gonna solve the whole matter .
learn to be honest and a bit more direct .
whatever not happy bout , say it .
and solve it .
its just freaking mind boggling / tiring / irritating
to see the stupid quarrel going on and on .

2008-08-05T21:53:00.003+08:00

a short short post .
went for dinner at kfc with girlfs .
dinner was awesome xD
had super loads of laughter with them .
laugh till nearly die xD i love them (:
went to school , reached quite early .
slacked and studied .
went to mama shop to buy smthing with linda , wendy and cheryl .
and there is a srlsly hilarious time when
junyi and chee whye ( ps for wrong spelling :x ) tried to lock the door .
super funny .
wanna know can ask linda or me xD

went to take pictures with girlfs at night .
went homey with leong bing and irwin .
leong bing went off halfway cause he reached alrdy ;p
home with irwin was SUPER FUNNY .
we walked home .
so there was lots to say .
we were trying to perfect or practice chinese
the whole process .
SUPER FUNNY .

MRT - 蛇车
fork - 尖尖
nurse - missy

thats not all ..
here comes the most funny part .

penguin - 扁脚鸭
giraffe - 长头鹿
HAHA !
and he still do the penguin walk style .
omg larhs .
laugh until i cannot stop xD

his chinese . tok kong and adorable xD
cute lah dey .
hahas . alrights thats all for updates .
toodles ! :D

2008-08-05T15:52:00.003+08:00

- yummz gossips

round half an hour plus before meeting my dearest girlfs
for dinner and to night study later .
lets see ..
CELESTE HO BEE HIAN that woman !
wanted me to do smthing evil ~ xD
but i didn't .
its our * ahems * secret :x
exhausted week .
i'm waiting for F-R-I-D-A-Y !!
cause i can sleeeeep till i happy ;p
gonna pon . teehees :B
nothing much today .
aites i guess thats all bout updates ;p
toodles [:

&&& ~
HAPPY 11TH MTHS GIRLFRIENDS [':
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
1 more mth to 1 year babes !
we last , even longer .
till ... nothing do us apart :D
i love my wendy , junsi , linda and cheryl da jie mens v v v v v much :D

2008-08-04T18:37:00.006+08:00

- tangeled and twined with pieces of inspiration

aites updates .

saturday , yes i know i updated .

but i left out the part that i went pasar malam with my sis .

wasn't very crowed , cause its the * ahems * 7th month .

we bought ice sticks :D

darn cute and colourful stall .

okays . thats all ;p

lets move on to ... sunday .

went to jtc function place in jurong east

JURONG EAST DARN FAR .

but well at least there was car to that place .

played pool , and karaoke .

celebrated cousin ngee heng's birthday there .

wasn't exactly very very enjoyable .

cause starting to feel quite distant from mummy's side family .

oh wells , heck anyways .

went to camwhore in the toilet with ah jie :D

after the whole function .

we had to go home via PUBIC TRANSPORT .

like wtf ?!

can't they just freaking send us home .

we've gotta bring our sister and maid .

so TSK .

and they got 2 cars somemore .

very buey ge yan .

but still bo bian . initally wanted daddy to come fetch us .

but he was tired so forget it .

took 506 home .

LONG LONG LONG BUS RIDE .

had dinner with daddy .

then met daddy's side family :D

or shudd i say , the rest of the family members .

complained to them bout the bus thingy :x

and also they told me trip to japan was cancelled )':

AWWS ):

nbrms , next time !

and they promised me that

we will go overseas during holidays :D

go malaysia i also don't mind .

i don't wanna stay in singapore for the whole holidays ;p

chatted and went homey .

and today .

awfully exhausted .

went to bubble tea with cheryl and linda .

my dinner cum lunch cum breakfast :x

slacked till 5 plus come home .

okays ! thats all (:

i'm off to twit with my wendy da jie ! x)

tatas !

2008-08-03T03:06:00.003+08:00

apparently ...
now i'm just updating for the sake of updating now .
cause i no time ! and i don't have anything to update bout .
my life's pretty boring now .
cause its all study :x and sleep :x
okays , maybe just add in a show i watched .
FINALLY . i watched leap years .
like so darn long siah .
wait sooooo freaking long to watch a show .
and yeh i cried =='
missed out an outing with usual ones on friday .
i just can't make it and ..
i don't really feel like going out this whole month .
i sound crazy but thats just me ._.

okays i really don't know what to write anymore ._.
my blog is rotting ._.
i need exams to be over !
so that i can have things to blog bout .
rights . i'm talking to myself .
byes ._.

2008-07-31T15:34:00.003+08:00

- drained and fatigue , but we'll make it . somehow .

quick updates yeh .
night study had started . so i don't exactly have the time to use comp .
correction , no time to even on larhs .
nothing much on mon .
lets move on to tue .
tue went to celeste house bake .
linda baked for daniel .
i randomly bake xD
made cupcakes/muffins/browines ( idk what is it ! )
for girlfriends and family :D
okays , yesterday .
lets see ...
went for dinner with leong bing , johnathon and cheryl .
at ljs . ( my voice still smexyeh )
went night study .
walked homey .
and today !
i'm gonna be late :x
gonna meet cheryl for dinner at kfc .
omg fried again :x
and kfc !
clarence eat carrot i eat cabbage xD
( inside joke ) LOL

can't elaborate , cause i have no time .
okays gotta run .
bathe and off i go !
tata !

2008-07-28T16:33:00.004+08:00

- rights to speak , robbed away .

hey ho ho :D
school started . but my voice still ....
can't talk today .
i feel as if i'm being robbed of the rights to voice out my comments .
everyone made fun of the way i tried to talk .
its like soft whispers .
( not the pads , fyi ==' )
even TEACHERS made fun of me !
today wasn't exactly a good day in school .
thanks to some BASTARD who made celeste cry .
to think i use to think he is nice .
cause he is smart and treats celeste well .
hurs , wrong mans .

ohhs ! and and HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEISHEN !
anyways , lessons as usual .
went homey straight after school .
saw mingyi xiaomeimei :D when going to gate .
she did something that was srlsly cute and funny .

mingyi ( shouted ) : stand there ! 你不要动 !
i stand there , stun and really never move .
she walks over . smile and say
mingyi : 来我送你去 backgate !

LOL ! and because i send her to backgate once .
and she promised to send me also .
this time purposely ask me stand a distance away .
haha ! cute larhs .
i think thats all for updates today .
going celeste house with girlfriends tml !
they gonna bake cake .
and i'm gonna do my job , as usual ...
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DISTURB THEM ! MUAHAHAH !

celeste ! cheerups . whatever choice you make
we'll all respect that cause its your own happiness .
don't cry anymore !
i'll lend you my shoulder to cry on , like in the toilet !
i have my 4 wonderful girl friends to rely on .
so when i lend you my shoulder ,
you'll have 5 ! cause it includes them (:
its not worth to cry over him .
especially cry till so jialat .
loves ! [:

2008-07-27T09:55:00.006+08:00

- you'll never know its gone , till you totally lost it .

yehs . i lost it .

i lost my voice . totally lost it .

dammit . =='

nbrms update bout yest first .

girlfriends came to visit me !

AWWS [';

i was srsly shocked and very very touched x)

THANKS BABES / DA JIE MENS ! ILY GIRLS LOADS ! [':

xDD thats real big x)

i was feeling better in the afternoon .

but so sorry i had to pangseh them halfway .

cause they came while i was having gpq ! x(

2 rounds somemore .

but heng got tv entertain them .

ohhs and something unhappy happened .

to celeste .

cheerups . you make your own decisons to find your happiness .

some pictures of gpq x)

* you can ignore this part if you want to *

rights .

thats the photos .

i woke up damm early today .

just to keep testing if i can talk .

but , nothing came out . dreadful srlsly .

fell back asleep woke up at 8am .

had a headache and still no voice .

sian whole lorh ! not half niah .

cannot go watch this united play liaos )':

i tried calling cheryl .

they can hardly understand what i say .

okays , no . they can hardly hear =='

never go means i broke my promise x(

SO SORRY ! ]':

anyways , they are kicking now .

just jiayous ! do your best !

this united the only sg football team to make it xDD

LOL ! x)

okays thats all !

tooties .

my voice better get well .

or else i have to bring pen and notebook around tml ._.

2008-07-26T09:12:00.002+08:00

- you'll pain more than what they went through

good morning ! :D
i'm polite x) teehees :B
i'm sort of in a nice mood .
cause my fever is gone ! yay ~
but , i have sore throat .
real bad . even when i sneeze it hurts )':
my body still aches and i get ocassional headaches .
i'm gonna suffer before i dieeeee ~
T.T
okays , enough of dying drama =='
yesterday girlfriends went to ljs for lunch .
but i wasn't allowed to go );
i have to get well today .
cause this united are gonna have a match tml !
I MISS GIRLFRIENDS AND EVERYONE ! ]':
okays , i think thats all for updates .
and i'm really scared of porridge now T.T

psst , da jie mens ! you owe me a lunch date ! x)

2008-07-25T09:28:00.002+08:00

- they'll leave you dead and uncovered .

morning mornings (:
updates bout yest .
actually nothing much x)
i was darn sick .
i was feeling fine in the morning .
only till 12 plus during chem i started to feel darn cold .
i thought it was the fan , so didn't care much .
but my body was aching slightly .
during lunch time .
stayed in the classroom .
zhenci helped me to off the fans .
thanks zhenci ! (:
and zhaoshing , mingyang , sweesoon , sean and javier have to tahan the heat .
thats what mingyang said . ( cause idk if its warm for them )
thanks guys ! ;D
girlfriends came to class to accompany me .
i was wearing linda and bryan's jackets .
2 already , still feel freaking cold .
slept throughout 2 periods of pure .
paiseh linda ! leave you there to stone !
ohhs ! thanks eric !
he pulled my jacket to cover me properly when i was sleeping [:

after school .
went for art . i thought i was better already .
linda bought milo for me .
and inside art room , hua yong helped me to off the fan .
thankyou thankyou !
i felt as if i was in the arctic =='
around 5 plus , buey tong liaos .
took temp and guess how much .
39.0
i thought i was gonna die =='
my head hurt , my stomache ( i think ) hurts like shit , my whole body ached and i felt freak cold .
i called my aunts and cried .
very very uncomfortable .

cheryl cabbed me home .
reached home took medicine and sleep .
but the temp went up to 39.1 around 7 plus .
i was thinking of what coffin i want already =='
went to see doctor .
took medicine and sleep .
all the way till now .

i feel better now .
temp is 37.8 .
but i miss girlfriends ! ):
anyways i srsly gotta thank
junsi , cheryl , linda , kairui and guo zhu .
i might have fainted and died if without you guys .
and thanks those who sms-ed for concern [;
all i have to do now is .
pray that my eyes don't swell , get well and stone =='

2008-07-23T20:29:00.004+08:00

- life was never meant to be full of goodies .

goody good day (:
i'm too lazy to elaborate what happened today .
ohh ohh !
thanks SEE YOUFENG ! for the psp !
so happy teehees xD
but i cried twice today .
once in school at art room .
another at home , i broke down and cried darn hard .
thank god my sis was there ((:
she rocks all time :D

and and time for public recognition !
THANK YOU LEE YONG QIN ! TAO EHHHHS ~
i love my tao very very much xD
he kept my secret :x
and he told me smthing which made me .
well , relieved (?) x)

i think thats all for updates .
also thanks all those who cared when i fell darn upset ((:

2008-07-22T16:46:00.003+08:00

- we're living in a realistic and hypocritic world .

updates :D
nearly late for school today .
pia cab down .
$7 siah . so ex T.T
got my hair straightened before going :x
cause got phototaking and i'm not gonna take with riddiculous hair .
hehes ;x
thanks cheryl BB for the hershey cookies and cream choc :DDD
and junsi made us smthing :D
a small photo for girlfriends(:
a daily reminder for us that , 5 of us will always be there(:
awws (:
thanks junsi dino :DD ily loadddds ! <3

and during recess ,
irwin was riding jason's bicycle in school .
ride ride ride and try to pua stunt .
then see wadhwani ( correct spellning okay ! i checked ! )
faster run xD
laugh till i nearly want die xD

lessons as boring as usual xP
esp history elect .
sibei boring . i dozed off :x
pretty tired today . nearly threw kiddish temper x(
went for lunch with cheryl and linda .
then chinese lesson .
marked attendance then went to find leong bing .
he was with ah hwee , jiayong , qing hui and yue cheng .
slack there throughout whole period of chinese .
watch them ka dj max . LOL .

english oral after school .
mr lee said i've improved a lot for my overall english :D
wees ~
speaking english often helps :DD
i guess thats all for updates today .
taaataaaas :DD

2008-07-21T23:21:00.004+08:00

late updates for today ;x
school sucks . srlsly .
darn boring .
only when its free period its ' ahhh nice ' ;p
and it rain the whole day !
sooooo cold cans !
thanks bryan himbo for jacket ! x)
he is called himbo for a reason xD

anyways , after school went ljs with cheryl and linda .
omg :x i love long lunches and talks with them .
its super duper uper .
funny xD
' horneh day ~ ' and ' old jokes never die '
plus ! LINDA'S ACTION .
omg :x laugh till i nearly die xD
went homey around 6 plus .
and met jaslyn and junsi on the way ! x)

andd on the bus ,
i saw JOHNATHON LIM DAO WEI :D
LOL . with his ahems , jocelyn xD
he very shock to see me on bus . LOL :x
last long ehhs :D

tml is class photo taking .
omg , si mingyang say want to pinch my cheeks for informal shot .
heng , he just joking . hopefully ._.
mapled just now also .
today ppl inside , gan pua kaobei x.x
esp this stupid guy .
keep say want 1v1 .
and a lot of jiao stuff . step yi ge .
make me piss off like nuts :x

okays . i think thats all for updates .
friday maybe going bbq :DD
well , nights peoplexzxzxz x)

2008-07-20T16:20:00.009+08:00

went breakfast with pearlyn today .

her treat mans :DDi'm now declared , officially broke :x

okays . wait , just wait till eoy .

i'm gonna work T.T for monehhh ~

met around 10am at eastpoint .

met her and her cousin .

brought her cousin to tuition .

and we went walking round .

went ljs to buy water .

sat down and crapped .

no breakfast first cause it feels way to early to eat :x

then we decided to go airport x)

to look for ah jie and eat popeyes . LOL .

and we did something on our way there .

we spammed gum .

ROFLS :DD

we put 3 sticks of gum into our mouth .

sibei funny the reaction xDD

darren came to meet us :D

around 2 plus went back to tanah merah .

cause pearlyn have to go home .

and i have to reach home early today ( wayyyy early today )

and again .

on our way back .

we spammed gum again xD

this time i had 4 .

and pearlyn had 6

her reaction was so funny

i laughed till i nearly died :x

pearlyn rock my socks :D

ehhs , thats all for updates bahh .

and and !

cheryl called and said she saw lin you jia / yoga lin at marina's revoltage .

LOL . she said he is shuai xDD

okays , so random .

time for pictures :D

removed 2 cause pearlyn complained xD

2008-07-19T18:12:00.004+08:00

xiiaoB4ka and xHisLADY :D

i love my beanny v v v v v muchhh ~

101207 beannies day !

pearlyn is loved babeh :D

thats all for updates bout today :D

2008-07-19T07:57:00.003+08:00

morning [:
its freaking weird to be waking up soooo early ._.
not because i want to .
its because i can't fall back asleep again !
omg , sot liaos larhs .
okays , lets do some update :D

yesterday .
friday !
finally friday !
i ~~love~~ fridays no more ]:
CAUSE HAVE TO STAY TILL 3.30PM EVERYDAY ! 8(
cause , there is either poa or elect hist .
poa srlsly suck .
suck shit subject . TSK !

the only error i learnt about poa
is that
i shouldn't have taken the subject
_l_

what a ___________ ( fill in yourself )
i stayed back for poa this time .
suprising eh . =='
went bubble tea with cheryl and junsi .
thanks zhenci for the treat [;
bought back for zhenci also .
junsi went for art .
3.30 went for poa .

THANKS CHERYL FOR THE COMPANY AT POA LESSON !
ILY CHERYL BB ! :DDDD
if she wasn't there ,
i think i would have died during poa lesson xDDD
after poa , LIKE FINALLY .
went to art room to find junsi :D
i also showed mr mhmd my random sketches .
and he said i have a flare for art ! :DDDD
wee yoo weets !
smexyeh larhs ! :DDD
i was like freakking happy larhs .
but sad thing is .
i could have been able to take Os art paper .
but i was too late ]':
haiyas .
nbrms , i just pray my dpa will be approved !
i srlsly want that course !

went homey at around 4pm .
bathed , onlined , mapled . LOL .
and i told daddy what mr mhmd said .
and he smiled [:
omg , i was freaking happy larhs !
he smiled :DDD
he had the ' i'm so proud of my daughter ' look ! :DDD
started to draw at night .
i drew a jar and a fork xDD
gonna show it to mr mhmd and
most probably i'm gonna stay after school to do art .

i guess thats all for updates about yesterday .
i'll update soon , well . if there is anything to x)

labels : ART IS THE LOVE YO .
* linda ! post its are the LOVE too ! * x)

he makes me realise how much ily ):
he said : thats my girl .
and it totally reminds me of you .
i'll never forget what you said to me .
i miss you loads .
he is sweet and nice and all .
but he is just not you ):
imy boy ]:

2008-07-17T16:31:00.002+08:00

today !
lets see .
ss was fine , mr azhar's joke of the day .
mr azhar : today please drink a lot of water , cause its thursday .
LOL .

poa was , sucky , irritating , ghey .
its just simply ________________ . ( fill in as much vocab as you want to )
i think mr hee hee is gonna die soon :x
if not , he's gonna go bonkers soon :x
cause his white hair is getting more and more . abundant ya' know ! x)
and i think we are causing his brain cells to get killed more .
and he gets angry almost all the time = growth in cancer cells .

okays okays , enough .
i just hate the subject !
damm you poa , so freaking hard .
i think i'm the one who is gonna grow cancer cells .
and i'm gonna dieeee ! :O
* too much drama *

next , chinese is wee yoo weets !
darn funny , all play zhong ji mi ma .
laugh out loud larhs !
all the retarded forefits !
and dionne kenna direct rejection from wan sheng .

she has to go over and tell wan sheng
' wo xi huan ni , ni xi huan wo ma ? '
she walked over .
in front of the classroom . about to reach the seat .
andd ...
wan sheng put out his hand and shouted .
' ni bu yao guo lai ! '

LOL ! HAHA ! direct rejection larhs ! xDDD
its great to finish chinese Os early .
teehees :B

and then is chem !
went to lab .
i finally brought my qa book x)
i never succeed in the last experiment ._.
my test tubes all macham contaminated siol .
heh ! fine .
and mrs chng said to me .
' your fringe so cute horhs , cut until so short '
LOL !
she's one of a cute teacher xD

and pure !
slacked luhs .
and THANK YOU SEE YOU FENG !
hahas ! public recognition cans !
cause he is gonna lend me his psp next week for one whole week !! xD
and irwin's one is still with me .
haven't complete the game :x

came homey straight after school .
good girl okays x)
cause i am darn tired !
okays , thats all for updates today :D

2008-07-16T16:32:00.003+08:00

was suppose to have lunch with girlfriends today .
but wendy not feeling well .
so called off .
school's fine , poa suck-ed .
the rest , as usual larhs .
slackish .
my life is getting pretty boring .
and so is my blog . everything is getting way dull .
everything is changing .
somehow , feels like changing for the worst .
idk larhs .
i'm going through mood swings thanks to __________ ( fill in yourself )
* monthly thingy * =='
my blog sucks like fuck now .
which means ,
i might close it down .
yeps , idk yet .
still deciding . thats all for updates today .
i wanna go and sleep till i die .
tooties .

labels : it takes 5 to clap .

2008-07-15T23:43:00.004+08:00

no pics .
cause its darn late and i'm darn tired .
time is passing damm slow throughout the day .
had slight mood swing during recess :x
paiseh to the person i showed attitude :x
after Os chinese oral , went to tm .
bought things from popular with cheryl and linda .
and i saw sengie :DDDD
LOL .
fine , slacked awhile .
went to bedok inter , linda cut her hair !
and trimmed my fringe .
getting freaking long and pissing me off ! 8(
after that went homey .
thats all for updates larhs .
i'm going to bed .
NIGHTY NIGHTS ! :D

2008-07-14T21:09:00.004+08:00

updates !
sucker larhs , got a change of seat .
and now all around me are a bunch of joker guys .
goodness , sure will laugh like nuts .
but i wanna sit somewhere else lehs ! tsk !
okays nbrms .
i shall learn to be contented with what is being arranged .
WOW . xD
went to tm with cheryl and linda after school .
chit chat , snacked and went homey .
on the way , keep disturbing both of them .
i found out 1 way to shoot both .
muahahahas . x)
but they both shoot me back . LOL .
i laughed like nuts for the whole day :x
me and linda saw smthing on the bus .
its like gan pua effing funny !
the ROFLOLMAO kind of laugh .
hehes . x)
okays larhs , i guess thats all for the day .
laughing day . LOL :p

she wants you , she shows out everything .
i do it quietly without you knowing .
i don't have as much guts as her to do it .
maybe i'm at the losing end .
probably , i shudd be the one letting go ?
the pity for her
mostly the hurt is to see her needing you so badly
and letting you know .....

' what hurts the most '
' was being so close , and having so much to say '
' and watching you walk away '
- rascall flats

2008-07-13T02:57:00.005+08:00

yeps , i'm doing random updates .
and obviously i'm not at my own house .
cause i'm updating at 3AM !
LOL .
okays , just went to tp webbie .
i've .....
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decided to apply for dpa .
yepps to tp .
a safer route for me i guess .
did talk about it with tuition teacher .
she also supported me to go for it .
i haven't apply .
cause i intend to tell daddy and mummy first .
but sadly i didn't get to see them today .

surprisingly , i didn't take too long to decide .
* imma indecisive person :x *
but thanks to my sister :DD
its an advantage to have a sister at tp ya ' know :p
and my choices are

- visual communications [ design ]
- leisure and resort management [ business ]
- culinary and catering management [ business ]

wells . i know , i did say i wanted interior and apparel .
but both the designing courses .
i'm not really experienced or know much bout it .
and i tend to draw or sketch or do random designs of desktop backgrounds .
so , somehow or rather . visual comm i'm more exposed to it .
thats , truthfully speaking larhs .
the cut off points for the both business are 14 .
while , design is 12 .

i'm gonna get my application done tml .
and i so so so pray very very hard i can get it .
with the dpa , more secure cans !
and i need to start on portfolio .
but the question is .
who the heck am i suppose to find ?(!)
omg larhs :x
and this means i have to show my work to people ,
which is one thing . i never like to do .
cause , i HATE competitions , copycats and critics !!
critics , still okay .
cause no matter what , people sure judge and give comments bout your work .
but i ~~love~~ HAATTEEE / DETEST strong competitions and copycats .
i need support :/

sobxzxzxz larhs ~
people reading my current post .
i screaming for help ~
anyone know who i can turn to for portfolio helps .
tag me or tell me in school okays ?(!)

2008-07-11T15:27:00.003+08:00

* sleeeepieeee * LOL .
not really larhs .
i went to school late today .
yehhs , purposely late :x
was suppose to meet irwin to late .
but he say he have smthing on and will be even later .
so i went first .
suay enough . i kena detention for it .
dm nagged , checked and said i late a lot of times
and say 10.10am wait outside HOD , for detention .
* rolls eyes *
it was only 8.20am larhs . please , its way early .
and shit enough , the so called detention was a fk waste of time !
junsi and wendy went along with me .
to accompany me .
and waited for 15mins ! then he come out and say .
' go for your recess , next time don't late anymore '
like ........ wtf ?(!)
but also heng no detention or w/e .
went mac with cheryl after school .
cause she at home no lunch all the way till dinner .
so ask me accompany her for lunch .
eat , chatted and went off around 2 plus .
the clique will be going to KCCC for karaoke x)
i miss going karaoke with them !
no need new updated songs ,
old songs are already pretty awesome , with their entertainment xD
can't go for me , cause today's my maid's birthday :D
dinnering out !
and mummy's gonna come home soon :B
yays !
i miss my mum lots ! and my dad :DD
its been 9393872242332 years since i last had dinner with them .
srlsly , no joke .
thats all for updates today [:
I WANNA PLAY PSP BLEACH VERSION 5 . RAHHHHS !
AND DJ MAX 2 AND 1 !!!!

2008-07-10T17:48:00.002+08:00

updates .
back from school long ago .
went to sleep , thats why now then update x)
srlsly tiring today .
cause i slept late yest :x
i finally cleared my messy table ! :OOOO
and i found loads of missing notes and worksheets .
teehees :B
talking bout yesterday night .
I GOT CHEATED !
by ERIC TING FU XIANG ! LOL x)
si eric , cheat me .

he said he wanna apply for dpa on msn yesterday .
and i was like ehhs not bad , which poly ?
and he told me ....
geylang poly .
...... i was thinking .
' got geylang poly want mehs ? '
and he keep insiting have and sounded so convincing .
I ACTUALLY BELIEVED HIM !
and i even ask him choose tourisim and he said choosen !
and when daddy came back from home .
i ask him , got geylang poly anot .
he laugh at me siah ! and my sister also !
and they tell me no geylang poly . _l_ !
i feel so cheated and gong siol !
HERH !

that was like super emberrassing cans !
okays , enough of yesterday .
today . nothing much happened actually .
chinese was * double middle finger *
so boring ! and to skip the listening compre thingy .
i said i take basic chinese xDD
talked to leong bing during the two periods .
well , cause he had some problems .
he's very cute , srlsly . draw out his problems then show it to me .
the most unique way to tell your problems .
esp from guys .
cheerups leong bing ! everything will be fine :D
don't sad ! got me okays [:

came homey striaght after school .
and slept .
tired cans x)
i guess thats all for updates today .
well , tooties all ! (:

idk why .
but my mind tells me that .
somehow , suddenly i don't feel that i need you anymore .
but my heart just can't let go .
maybe it will , one day .
it will .
and i don't deny that
i still miss you .

2008-07-09T20:48:00.001+08:00

thanks celeste for editing :DDDD
i love my sister belly belly much .
* don't jealous xD *

2008-07-09T19:31:00.006+08:00

went to school with linda .
via cab x)
thanks for the cab and breakfast babe [:
another slackish day .
* hearts pure and elect xD *
linda shudd know why :p
skipped chinese lesson =='
meet my sister and her friends after school .
went to grab a present .
saw peijuan , vivian , samantha and siting :D
met up with cheryl and linda after getting present .
slacked at starbucks .
crapped and laugh till we nearly died there xDD
its srlsly gan pua funny larhs !
went homey after that .
yes , i'm darn lazy to eleborate :p
i guess thats all for today ?
tooties :D

random : i feel like applying dpa for tp poly . x)

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visit xiaoxi's blogshop ! its reliable and good . visit http://shoppitout.blogspot.com/ !
the spree is ending this week , grab
those clothes fast now ! no worries , she won't bite :DD

2008-07-08T17:50:00.003+08:00

back from school ! :D
actually its like long time back ;p
darn tired siol .
woke up way early , to meet linda and cheryl .
mrs choo will not be in school for the this and next week .
yes ahhhhs !
means no english extra lessons for the whole class .
teehees ;p
but the teacher today for english was srlsly sucky .
such a __________ ( fill in yourself ) :x
celeste made stupid jokes bout her xD
yeps , its mean but funny cans .
physics macham gossip period today x)
and its two whole periods .
not just only girls , but zhaoshing , ah yong and johnathon joined in xDD
its LAUGH OUT WAY LOUD .
si xiaoxi say i always full of latest gossips ! x)
is my antenna long hao bu hao ! x)
* note : my gossips are harmless , its about not backstabbing or scolding people *
and khair gave me chocolate today [:
don't jealous * winks winks * xDD
share with celeste , i'm nice cans x) rofls .
and i'm now associated with many many nicknames =='
esp , dolly , ah gong and maoless .
LOL .
dolly is cause of my bangs .
ah gong is .... cause my bangs and new geeky specs .
and maoless is .... * promise me not to laugh *
cause i have very thin hair .
FYI : I'M NOT THINNING HAIR ! ITS NATURAL THIN MIND YOU !
i love history today ! xDD
all because of mango top , make me crap and linda laugh like siao (^^)V
and jian guo ignore me when i call him mushroom . :B
whole day of school is darn slack . i like . ;p
tml morning got free cabby to school .
teehees :B
thanks linda :DD don't jealous luhhs x)
miie giirlfriends lurrbs miie belly belly mucch worshhx .
HAHA , TWIT FACE xD
i feel crapy and happy [:
thats all for updates !
i'm off to find my beannie ;DDD

2008-07-07T14:41:00.008+08:00

lets start with the pictures from last outing (:

yepps , and followed by .

happy 10th months girlfriends (:

5 july 2008 :DDD

sunday

breakfast with cheryl and linda .

starbucks ;D

walked around chit chat alot xDD

saw li min ;DD

and had a hilarious conversation with them .

i'll be the future god-mother of linda's kids xDDD

lim zhi ho , lim bo ho and lim ho ho ! xDD

also got lim ha ha and lim he he !

LOL ! xDDDD ROFL SRLSLY .

ke ai rights the names x))

went homey and next to ah ma's house .

i studied maths today ! (^^)V

thats all for updates today .

tatas !

its gonna be a temporary stop .

cause no matter how much i think about it .

the final verdict is not made by me .

somethings are just not within my control .

i guess i'll just try and strive for what i can now , which is my Os .

but smtimes , i just can't stop thinking .

and missing you .

2008-07-06T10:55:00.005+08:00

morning (:
a random post .
boybands who rock at garages are srlsly , hot and cute .
muahahas xDD
especially , guitarist , drummers and lead vocalist !
weee yooo weet smexeyehs !

/edit .
no more smexeyeh drummers or whatsoever .
i feel darn low now .
i think , i feel so low that those things can see me .
where's girlfriends !
where's my sister ?!!!
where's melvin brother !!!
where 's pearlyn beannie !!!!
i feel like crying ]:
but my tears just feel all clogged up .
i need a shoulder , i need one really badly .
i want my sister to be with me now !!!

i was right !
all along ! she loves you .
no girls would mention and highlight and bold a guy's name for so many times .
what if you go back to her instead ?
whats gonna happen ?
all your txnd , talking bout her ?
i feel like a goon , a dumb .
i'm gonna break down and cry .....

2008-07-05T18:47:00.002+08:00

i still don't have the pictures .
cause junsi is doing mass editing x)
and well , soon enough mass sending .
some how , hen ke lian siahs . she has to do the editings x)
* feeling guilty here * xD
why ? cause i do know how to edit * though not as nice as hers *
but i'm just ....
plain lazy . x)
woke up around 5pm today .
not am , is pm .
power rights xD
ehhs , don't blame me i slept at 3plus yesterday ! :B
okays , lets move on to the updates on friday (:

4 july 2008
its .... be yourself day !
yepps , the day which says .
' no uniforms , or i'll kick your ass '
LOL . okays , that was made up by me . ;p
its a day to just dress up and go school .
but still , there were certain rules that applies to this .
somehow , still slightly acceptable .
or else , you'll see people bearing there smexeyeh legs .
or .... pang bua liap * ahems *

anyways , met girlfriends at mac .
saw wencong daniel and co . there .
and saw pratchaya and kenneth there also .
went to school after breakfast .
the concert was bout BGSS idol .
the girl who sang ' hero ' by mariah carey . POWER SIOL !
really nice .
and the guy who sang ' i believe i can fly ' HOT MANS !
his voice melts people larhs ! xDD
and there were jokes bout . three layered xDDD
sibei funny cans !
after school , went to meet wendy .
then went to marina .
ate at ljs . service sux . srlsly .
went to toilet , camwhored .
afterthat , slack at rocky master .
around evening , took 14 homey .
reached home around 8 .
ehhhs , i know it sounds very summarised .
but i feel lazy larhs !
hmms , i'll post up the pictures asap .
thats all i guess .
tatas !

2008-07-04T21:22:00.002+08:00

just a real short update .
tml then elaborate .
be yourself day today .
after school went out .
everything will be elaborated tml !
plus the pictures .
tooties ! xDD

srlsly , this is damn short . tee hees :B

2008-07-03T19:57:00.008+08:00

pretty pretty flower . ;p

lols !

updates larhs .

today , wasn't really a good day in the morning .

that was , during recess .

cause i went into the ' temper zone ' and cried .
thanks celeste and the rest for the concern .

whole day was quite a drag .

awws ):

geo was better , cause went to lab ;p

went blog hopping with linda and jiayong .

kua zhar bor . LOL xD

after school waited outside 4/4 with linda , celeste , denise and zhenci .

was waiting for cheryl .

but denise , celeste and zhenci left first .

camwhore outside the class xDD

so yepps , you'll expect pictures :D

was gonna met pearlynn today . but she can't make it )':

LOL xD

around 4 plus , went to get cheryl's bubble tea .

then to wendy's house to get my leggings .

and to linda's house to get her jumper for altering or smthing .

then to 539 to find aunty jenny to get my money .

next to 511 fot linda's jumper altering .

and finally , went homey .

ROFL .

li hai bahsxzxzxzxz ! xDD

i'm dead tired by the time i reach home larhs .

and meeting the laydehs for breakfast at mac tml morning .

i have to wake up at 4.45AM tml ! WTFSXZXZXXZ !!

thats wayyyyy early !

hehs , i think i did better get some good night sleep .

thats all for updates !

enjoy the photos , with my retarded faces =='

its the first time i took photo with my new bangs !

plus kenneth's hand ! :DDD LOL .

he's srlsly cute . i miss him mansxzxzxzx xDDD

taaadaaaa ! thats all ! :DDD

and i have short fingers >8(

ROFL .

TOOTIES ! :DDD

2008-07-02T18:54:00.005+08:00

school like everyday .
but this time girlfriends had lunch together :D
and wendy disturb me !
say i gong kia from gong kia island x)
cause we were disturbing linda , then i from disturb linda to disturb wendy xDD
laydehs , be honoured siol !
the one and only gong kia from gong kia island ,
personally fly from there to sg to have lunch okays ! xDD
and khair calls me dolly . =='
ROFL . thanks a lot bangs ;p
but i love my bangs larhs x)

after school went to tm with xiaoxi ;DD
went to buy our black bangles . LOL .
yeps , bought it on impluse , but its $1 for 3 from 77th street .
not those thick thick bangles .
but its the type of stringy thin ones .
after buying , went popular . xiaoxi got her file .
and saw shirui and her friends . * wavess ~ xD *
went to foodcourt to get some bites xD
ice kachang . LOL .
chit chat and chat and chat a lot . :p
that lady can sure chat alot x)
next time can find her chit chat xDDD
went homey after that , took 31 together .
we practically talk non-stop from our way there till home ! LOL .
but after chatting .

i found out a lot of things .
and she seems to be the only few people i know ,
who will tell her friends how she feels .
and she really does reflects upon herself .
bu cuo worhs xiaoxi ! xD

and celeste showed me an article .
http://www.francesfarmersrevenge.com/stuff/serialkillers/sagawaconfession.htm
read it and enjoy * pukes *
it makes me wanna become a vegetarian .
that guy is srlsly gay mans .
fuck sick gay . like OMG .
eew , srlsly .
if every couple love each other and wanna be in each other's tummy .
people will decrease daily .
and i'll be a nun :D
LOL ! i feel rubbish xD

okays , thats all for updates .
tooties all ! ;D

2008-07-01T17:54:00.005+08:00

你吃大便 .
your mama never teach you don't be kaypoh ?
go away larhs .
girlfriends fall apart , never mans .
做人不要 so kaypoh ! keep your nose out of people's matter .
get this clear and learn this phrase .
' don't trouble trouble , till trouble troubles you '
and and , please .
don't randomly sms someone to pick you up after school .
cause its scary and sibei lame .
want to meet people say larhs , pick after school ?
xiaojie arhs , sec 1 liaos . not kid anymore .
like * ahems * said , ' dog mahs , need people bring home '
LOL .
cunt face in a wardrobe . cheh .
nehnehpundeh ! ;p

2008-07-01T16:17:00.003+08:00

no pic of the day .
i'm too lazy and not entirely recovered from the shock of chinese Os .
yepps , Os oral .
don't wanna talk bout it :x .
sobsxzxzxz ~ thats all to describe .
can't blame me for lousy chinese :x
i was so scared that i went completely dumb in the hall .
and thanks leongbing for the sms hug and encouragement :D
one word to descibe the exam : FUCK T.T
idk what else to say bout it ._.
and idk what else to blog bout .
maybe i'll just end off here today .
tooties .

2008-06-30T20:43:00.004+08:00

updates [:
just reached home not long .
i've got my fringe cut , my bag and my specs . :DD
the bag , must thank junsi for intro ! xDDD
* see your name junsi ? * ;p
and i went to cut my fringe , like finally .
after it disturb-ed me for sooo long !
got it straight bangs .
don't laugh =='
everyone in the family say i look like a kid now .
LOL .
i don't feel like going school tml ! ;x
cause i scared people laugh at me xP
linda didn't come school today , cause she was sick .
get well soon laydeh ! :D
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELESTE AND YEW HAO !
yepps , both of them are turned 16 today .
5 more months till mine . LOL .
w/e larhs ! x)
and and ! tml is my CHINESE ORAL FOR O LEVELS !
screaaaaammmmmsss ~
gan chiong gan chiong !
and and thanks cheryl BB and celeste for getting the bag with me :DD
okays , i'm done with updates and getting my specs tml .
well tatas all :D

2008-06-29T15:28:00.004+08:00

i feel sooo much better ! :DDDD

and i did it without medicine and doctor xDD

had breakfast with cheryl , linda and junsi today morning .

was suppose to go suntec for cheryl's church service .

but i was too lazy to go all the way to suntec and also didn't feel like serving .

;x forgive me ! xP

i swear i'll go back to chc soon enough ;p

met at 10am .

darn early larhs .

but for starbucks !! its worth :B

teehees .

i finally have my starbuckieeees ~

weee yoooo weet !

like ____________ ( fill in yourself ) heavenly ~ :DDDDDDDD

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

it feels like 92823736433 years since i last have breakfast .

no joke xP

cause every morning would be rushing to go to school .

and on weekend mornings i sleep till around 12 .

and i have brunch . not lunch not breakfast .

so , this is breakfast . xDDD

junsi joined us a bit later .

claps for her , she actually woke up sooo early on a weekend ! :O

hehes :p

sat down , chit chat and went to walk around century or tm .

and i was blooooooooodddddyyyyyyy tempted to buy a bag !

i ~~NEED~~ ~~WANT~~ ____________ ( fill in yourself ) a new bag !

yes for school !

its a bagpack , black in colour . like rectangular shape .

unique okays ! and i don't see people taking it , yet .

its from zinc and its hell niceeeee ~ x)

junsi actually wanted the bag .

but when she tried to carry it .

she found it weird .

cause she is tall , and the bag is long . end up she don't want .

but i want !

i'm ~~short~~ , okays i admit . i'm A BIT short :B

just a bit okays ! hehes , 159cm is ACCEPTABLE !

so i think carry liaos won't weird . tired and i LOVE IT !

* faints faints * and it cost $36 . average price for a bag .

i'm soo gonna get it :B

and thanks to the help of linda with a loan of 10 bucks .

its gonna be mine xDDD wednesday !

wait for meeeeee ~

be yourself day is this friday .

and i've got nothing to wear plus , i don't feel like going :p

see how it goes uhhs .

and i srlsly need a haircut for my fringe already .

sooo long .

sooner or later i might get caught xP

straight bangs or slanted fringe ?

i need to get ....

1) THAT bag !

2) haircut

3) geeky specs ! my eyesight is failing x(

mummy where are youuuuu !!!! xD

thats all tatas ! off for tuition !

2008-06-28T10:57:00.003+08:00

morning morning .
what a ~~good~~ morning :/
i'm sick .
not sickish . but sick .
awws )':
my body is aching like nuts , my nose keep running , and having fever .
i think i'm gonna dieeee ~
i'm going to kee qia three days later .
gahhhhhh ~
sobszxzxz , i don't wanna dieeeeeeee ~ .
okays , enough drama =='

instead of feel like dying .
i crave for a lot of things now .

i'm craving for ......
1) starbucks [ caramel frappe with java chip and whip cream venti size ! ]
2) low fat banana bread with walnuts from starbucks .
3) DONUTS !
4) waffles and rose tea !
5) B&J ice-creammmm ~
6) a new bag
7) a new phone
8) new shoes !
9) new pencil case !

yes i know , i sound like a glutton xDDD
but what i really really crave for is just .
STARBUCKS ! * hear the heavenly sound ! *
awwwws , where is cheryl BB ! and linda !
jinghui craves for starbucks ! * waves waves *

and i'm missing ....
1) ___________ ;p ( for me to know but not for you to find out xD )
thats all i'm missing :B

i think my fever is so high that my brain is now
officially , spoilt .
myabe thats why i'm so crazy now .
bahahahs ~
tooties !

2008-06-27T14:31:00.002+08:00

nothing much to blog about for today .
i'm down with cold , i think .
sooo not feeling well .
thanks linda for bringing chrysanthemum tea and yan yan for me :DD
she came with daniel to my house void deck .
sat and chit chatted awhile .
and they went off , i went homey .
usual ones going karaoke session tonight .
not going , cause i'm sicccckkkk .
but , do enjoy yourself peeps ! :D
i want a new phoneeeee ~
and i wanna go for a vacation !
to bali , indonesia .
cause i think i've been attracted by the private villas and beaches .
after reading dawn yang's blog .
like omg . HOT VACATION IS A MUST !
for phones , i want C902 or C905 , even better i want sidekick !
LOL .
i'm nuts ;x
C902 is bar phone , 5 megapixel camera fuction , and there is RED .
i love red gadets larhs .
they are like ' ohh so hot ! ' * sizzle * ;p
weee yoo weets .

but C905 , 8 megapixel . LIKE OMG .
8 MEGAPIXEL . THATS LIKE DIGI CAM BODOH !
ownage to the ownership of the phone !
cause , all cameras and best camera phones are nothing . compared to C905
but sadly .
its a slide phone !
awws ):
i don't like slide phones !
and there is red too !
but maybe i can try and get use to using it ?
of course only when i have it larhs .

and not forgetting .
iphone is coming !
i'm not one of the iphone fanatic .
but , its really pretty and good to use .
my uncle bought his overseas months ago .
tried it , not bad . user friendly and very light .
so , the launch of iphone , issn't very wow cause i've used it before .
but still a wow , somehow or rather , cause its like one of the best phones .
if not wrong the price is like $700 SGD .

so many pretty gadgets ):
and linda's viewty is not bad too .
its a real big weeet weeew pretty phone .
esp the pink colour x)
yeps , i go for the camera and the colour plus design of phones .

well well , enough about phones and pretty gadgets .
i pray to get my lappy , digital cam , phone and psp slim(purple) end of year .
* prays prays *

thats all for updates today .
the gadget-y update x)
tooties all .
i'm off to bed .
i going to toh liaos . i feel darn sick :/

imissyou !

2008-06-26T23:10:00.003+08:00

be shocked .
cause i'm gonna tell you something that is going to blow you .
its about .....
my ~~assholey~~ brother reeve xD
okays , its about me . but the advice was from him .

about the piercing of my tongue .
dear old brother told me not to pierce .
NOT :OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
* jaws drop ! * xDDD
coming from him ! someone who used to have soooo many piercings siah .
and i thought he was going under the
' i support you ' catergory x)
LOL .
hah . nice one ~~assholey~~ brother x)
but still asshole cause always never tag me ! xD

nights all !

2008-06-26T20:13:00.003+08:00

yepp yepp .
its time for updates :D
chinese lessons are now the big hit yo . xD
cause , its macham FREE PERIOD .
yes , cause its like byebye chinese O levels . teehee :B
well but not oral for chinese Os ]:
anyways , yesterday school was another drag .
except for poa xDD
cause it was lab time ! and of course as expected of
miss ng jinghui .
i didn't do my work and i sat right at the back surfing ;p
yepps typical me .
after school went to LJS with linda and cheryl .
sat there for lunch and chit chatted till 7 plus .
really talked , vent and laughed alot .
and i kena stuffed there ! :'x
rofls . reached homey around 8 plus .
kena kaobei by parents .
and went to sleeeeeeep at 10pm .
the best of yesterday was time with cheryl and linda .
the rest was , S-U-C-K . yeps suck .

and today , school as usual .
but little missy was different .
i ..................................
LISTENED AND STUDIED TODAY .
yepps i did :DDD
give yourself a pat on the back for a job well done jinghui ! :p * pat *
at first was poa .
i was listening to music in one ear .
celeste went to sit with anling in front .
i was feeling bored and started to doodle .
copied like 3 words and i don't know what came over me ,
i suddenly , read the questions .
and started to try and slove .
to my my my really really biggy surprise .
i actually UNDERSTOOD and FOUND IT EASY :OOOOOOOOOOO
and after one attempt I GOT IT CORRECT ! * ting ting ting ! 1 mark ! *
close your mouth , put back your popped out eyeballs and stop tearing out your hair .
I MANAGED TO LISTEN ! weets !
* mr lim sure happy till cannot sleep tonight * ;x
and i continued my determination to study poa till end of the periods .
and guess what .
its 2 PERIODS . spell it with me T-W-O .
TWO WHOLE PERIODS ! :OOOO
oh my momma ! strike 4D also not as good as this larhs !
give another pat for a good job done :D * pat * and say ' well done jinghui ' xDDD
okays okays , enough with the self-praise .
and mr lim did not scold me for listening to music ;p
i also paid attention during chemistry .
first time never fall asleep :DDD
can i have another pat ? xDDD okays .
* pats * teehees ~
after school went to LJS again , with cheryl and linda .
this time , ~~chit chat~~ .
no no , is study [: MATHS .
HOLY PEE AND SHIT ! MATHS LEHS !
yeh yehs , don't scream . we did do okays .
and its like ownage revision , cos we solved almost all the questions .
with , CORRECT ANSWERS :DD
can i have another pat on the shoulder ? :B
muahahas , i just can't get enough xDDD
in between were like short little craps from me x)
well , i just can't get serious at normal times ;p
by the time we finish , we were .
dead . tired .
but well , got a hugeeeee sense of accomplishment :DDDD * shinning * x)
well well , i guess thats all for updates today !
tooties :D

thanks cheryl BB and linda for hearing me out and care .
i'll show them what i've got .
prove people wrong with my results for Os :D

* picture upload tml ;p *

2008-06-24T16:31:00.002+08:00

goody good afternoon (:
i had a few periods of wonderful sleep today .
and they are all maths ;x
can't blame me larhs , i slept at 1am yesterday .
and to think i wanted to sleep at 10pm !
LOL .
and i was late for school today .
cause i missed the bus and wasn't very late when i reached school .
still quite early .
guo zhu was late too ! daddy ~ lawl .
chit chatted while waiting for OM / DM to come .
I Miss Guo Zhu ! I Miss The Whole Clique !
its been very very long since we really last got together and enjoyed .
lets have our very own clique only chalet at costa sands end of year okays ? :D
now we have to jiayous for Os and Ns level ((:
school was quite a drag .
but history elect and chinese was still alright .
didn't bring books for history elect class .
sat at the back and chit chatted ;p
a lot of crap came from zhaoshing and ivan , like really LOL .
xiao xi also x)
for the first time i didn't hate chinese class .
cause ... the teacher wasn't here .
YES AHHHHHHHH ;p
its not bad okays . i just don't like her xP
make me get statement forms and a lot of problems .
and i finally saw leong bing !
didn't see him the whole holiday siol .
I Miss Leong Bing ! :DD
he's still full of craps as usual .
his lanjiao rubbish make me laugh like siao .
and he knows my little secret . LOL .
after chinese was extra maths lesson .
slept in between the periods .
and finally school ended at 3.20pm !
heng arhs ! anymore i would have died :x
came homey straight after school , cause i'm dead tired x)

now 4 people are against me piercing my tongue .
leong bing's reaction was really big .
leong bing : cannot pierce , you pierce i don't talk to you anymore . break friendship and i gen ni li hun arhs !
LOLOL !
but what i don't get is ..
why pierce liaos all don't want to talk to me =='
so ... maybe ....
i MIGHT not pierce anymore ?

thats all for updates .
i'm so tired and i'm going to catch some sleep .
after-nights ;DDD

2008-06-23T21:05:00.003+08:00

hellos school ~~holidays~~ _l_
yes yes .
today is the first day of school .
its .......
boring , sucky and i hate the timetable .
the school cheat my feelings larhs ! dammit .
say want to cut short the time in school .
say nice nice let me happy is 2.10pm .
but then end up , there will be extra lessons / remidals after 2.10pm .
all the way till 3.20pm .
and guess what .
most of them are compulsary , no . ALL .
shit mansxzxzxz ~
i thought i can happy happy take bag go home at 2.10pm .
and i'm like so not used to waking up early again ~
like ._.
and today first day of school , already got extra physics lesson .
but i char bok .
with dionne and some others also .
like ahhhs , i know exams comming but , c'mon first day of school lehs !
and si ah yong !
at first say until so shuang and sat kee say study study ask me don't char bok .
end up also char bok !
still ask me to go talk talk when saw him at busstop . LOL .
funny cans xD
went home first and met girlfriends at tanah merah .
went for our lateee lunch at popeyes .
this time is at T3 .
after lunch , we talked and talked a lot .
and we shared our little secrets .
hahas , srlsly . it was like hell lots of laughter in between x)
the conversations include erasers , poles , tea and junsi's moves xDDD
left around 7pm .
and this is smthing to remind people with bad and unhygenic habits .
lets see ...

we boarded the mrt train .
train stopped at expo .
when it just started to move . someone led out SIBEI CHAO DERH BAD GAS .

wendy : omg , got people fart !
* all covers noses quickly *
cheryl : * shouted loudly * WALAO EHHS ! SO SMELLY !
cheryl : WHO FART SIAH ! MA DERH , MEI YOU GONG DEH XIN !
cheryl : EAT WHAT SIAH SO SMELLY , WTH . FART HERE .
all of us laugh damm loud .
me : must be eat garlic and onion bodoh .
linda : next time must bring oxygen tank liaos .

shit larhs , its not sibei smelly .
is gan smelly bodoh ! xP
like wtf ? don't fart in public please .
its unhygenic and gan disgusting ! yucks yucks .
they went off to bedok to go home .
and i went home from tanah merah , make sense cause my house is there .
lols .
had a small small commotion at home .
it nearly became me and sleeping pills and commit sucide .
dumb i know , so i didn't .

andd i need COMMENTS please !
the thing is : i wanna pierce my tongue , yes . close your mouth please , i know its shocking .
but , i don't know if i shudd . cause ...
if i pierce , bad things are
1) my sis sure get angry at me .
2) for proper clean tongue piercing , expensive .
3) irwin might not talk to me anymore just like my sis .
4) i'll get chopped alive if i'm found with tongue piercing by my parents .
5) my tongue might get infection .
6) if i don't want the piercing anymore , there will still be a permanent hole .
7) i don't want bad impressions .

if i pierce , good things are
1) i'll get a nice body art .
2) the stud can be my best mate when i'm bored ( yes , play with it ) . =='
3) its ... just pretty .
4 ) i satisfied my craving ==' .

how ? pierce or don't pierce .
i know sure will bad impression and i don't want xP
give me comments pleaseeee ~
on the tagboard or on msn or in school x)
cause , i neeeed help to make up my mind xP

2008-06-22T19:51:00.007+08:00

~~yeps i just threw my temper in public .~~
~~i'm so mad , srlsly .~~
~~and i know , i shuddn't have and i even gave stupid faces and attitude to grandparents .~~
~~i never did that before and i know i'm wrong .~~
~~but i had it~~ .
~~enough . i'm sick and tired of people in the family~~ .
~~labelling me bad , naughty , spoiled , brat , ah lian .~~
~~all these coming from the family .~~
~~its sickening FUCK SICKENING .~~
~~i had it larhs .~~
~~i don't care if it comes from mummy's side .~~
~~but its starting to come from daddy's side .~~
~~dammit , the side i love the most and thought that they would love me no matter what .~~
~~but i guess i was wrong .somehow , views about me changed .~~
~~i don't understand .~~~~just because i'm growing up ? just because i used to do wrong things ?~~
~~it makes no sense larhs fuck .~~
~~yes , i admit my vocab changed . i grew .~~
~~but i'm still the drooling stupid spoiled brat okays~~ .
~~i'm not any chao ah lian larhs .~~
~~yes i know i smoke . but i stop .~~
~~i do know how to repent . not like i don't know .~~
~~last time i always get to see smiling faces and welcoming warm comments .now ?~~
~~all i see , still smiling faces but soon enough it will be all the ranting .~~
~~' jinghui study harder '~~
~~' jinghui don't mix with bad company '~~
~~' jinghui be more sensible '~~
~~' jinghui blah blah blah '~~
~~dammit , what is wrong larhs .~~
~~i'm not a fuck face to get nagged at .~~
~~i'm already feeling damm alone at home~~ .
~~i don't need to feel that i don't have a family at all .~~
~~needless to say , that feeling has come already .~~
~~cause if it hasn't i won't be writing here , like a note to myself .~~
~~dammit .~~
~~i just want , to be loved like a little kid again .~~
~~i don't wanna keep feeling so low and bloody lonely .~~
~~fuck mans~~ .
~~fuck the whole damned life .~~

noppes .
enough . i'm gonna pick myself up .
score the the Os .
change my stupid shit attitude .
and i'm gonna sweep people off the ground .
cause , i'm not gonna give up on my studies and my attitude .
and .
i'm gonna make a comeback .
and of course , with my dearest girl cheryl (:
thanks for the encouragement BB cheryl :DD

2008-06-22T15:01:00.002+08:00

yes , i'm bloggin .
put your eyeballs back , no need to be so surprised .
thank goodness mummy promised me not to take away .
* hearts mummy *
okays . updates .
yesterday , nearly rotted at home .
but went to aunty's house ;D
heng arhs . saved me from rotting .
went swimming , its condo , so saves a lot of trouble and no stinky toilets ;x
and yes , i've been swimming for pass 2 days .
and i think i'm gonna die larhs .
i have breathing difficulties while swimming .
all the old ciggs fault ;x okays , my fault ;x
after swim , went for dinner .
dinner was at swensens .
after dinner , went to mustafa . yes very random .
stayed overnight and slept around 5am .

and tml is the start of school !
and today at 12am marks the end of summer holidays !
like *SCREAMS *
time flies larhs ! holy shit .
soon i'll find myself sitting in the examination hall .
TAKING O LEVELS :OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
i have to sumpah ,
next half of the year is mug mug mug , study way hard !
TP design school wait for me mans !
cause little missy is going there ! and i'm gonna make it big ! (:
and little missy will be the future rich and famous :DDDDDDDD
teehees !

2008-06-21T13:23:00.004+08:00

random pic .
and good morning people ! ;p
didn't have a great night yesterday .
yes , i cried . hard .
anyways , doesn't matter .
and sadly , this might be the last post )':
cause , i'm gonna go mia after today .
~~my mummy's gonna take away my keyboard and mouse~~ .
yes . go ahead laugh =='
but ohh wells , no more msn and blogger .
sobs shit .
~~my blogger is gonna die )':~~
i'll only be able to post or go online if i have a lappy .
so , if anyone has a lappy well , extra one .
please please pretty please lend me !
cause i can't stand living without a lappy or comp !
if i ~~never~~ post again , or i post like once in a blue moon . not :D
do keep the tags coming ! :D

2008-06-20T21:08:00.002+08:00

night updates ;p
went out with cheryl and linda just now after tuition .
and i had a treat of Bens and Jerry ice-cream during tuition ! ;p
teehees , thanks doris !
now i guess there are always 2 very very good friends who will always be with me .
and they are ben and jerry .
HAHAS . LOLS ! okays i know i'm lame .
fine . =='
anyways , went to tamp inter and meet cheryl first .
walked around and chit chatted .
that girl , has grown up more mature (:
i'm proud of you dearest :D
and waited for linda to come for our COFFEEEEEEEE ~
wee yooo weets !
starbucks ! * hearts hearts *
chit chatted , bitched and gossiped .
srlsly , i came to finally realised and agree that .
all girls are actually bitches .
okays , i know at this point of time people will sure beat me .
but its true . we are all bitches it only depends if you are gonna be a nice one or really mean one .
all girls gossip and bitch . don't ya think so ?
like c'mon even guys bitch and gossip larhs .
and i've heard of those conversations .
they are way better than girls .
like , ownage mans .
left starbucks around 7 plus and went homey .
and on my way home ,
something really really nice happened to me .
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MY SHOE BROKE ! YES IT BROKE !
HOW NICE MANS ! AND I WAS WALKING MY WAY HOME !
LIKE AHHHH ! DAMMIT . THE FRONT DETACHED FROM THE BASE .
SMEXEYEH LORHS !
=='
i was cursing my way home
(**&%#!!&&^$%#$@@@
**&^%%%^&&!!!!!!#$%%^&&&%#$#
)_&%^$#@!!!@#%^
* censored censored *
* censored censored censored *
_l_ _l_ _l_ _l_ _l_ _l_ _l_ _l_ _l_
yehs , that .
and thank goodness there was no dog poop .
arbo i sure curse that stupid dog die .

and i walked home , barefooted .
one leg larhs .
when i reached home , i've got blisters ._.
poor leg .
nbrms , this shows that ..
i can get new shoes soon ;p
new slippers , teehees .
i guess thats all for updates here :DD
tooties .

超爱你也超怕你不要我了

2008-06-20T13:45:00.002+08:00

morning :DDD

i know its afternoon , but i just woke up larhs .

so hehes . morning ;p

i'm late for updates , but i had fun yesterday and 18th's night .

lets go way back to 18th .

18th june

met up with cheryl and junsi to go east coast together .

junsi was the latest larhs x)

and i was the earliest ! FOR THE FIRST TIME !

* applause * xDDD

cabb-ed down to east coast . met the rest at the pit .

and went to starbucks to slack awhile .

cheryl was talking to roger on the phone .

after that i talked awhile too xP

I Miss Roger ! :DD

* see see roger ! i wu xim ;D muahahas *

and after that linda and daniel came .

slack awhile and went back to the pit .

evening till night was a drag .

nothing interesting and smthing bad happend .

i shall not elaborate .

but anyway it was sooo much better at night .

me and cheryl went to meet roger and clarence .

we sat down and chit chat and well , it cheered cheryl up((:

and roger was the joke of the day ! xDD

cheryl and clarence sat to talk , while roger and i went to carl's jr to buy dinner for cheryl .

chit chatted somemore till 11 plus and went homey ;DD

when i reached home it was going to 12 .

after bathing , went to aunty's house to stayover night .

watched resident evil 1 and 2 with sister till 4am .

and slept ! :DDD

19th june

went wild wild wet ! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

pearlynn came to aunty's house first .

and yes i miss pearlynn like LOADDDS !

prepared and went out ;DDD

bus-ed to downtown and met up with the rest !

i sooo miss all of them !

went to play the shiok river first .

after a few rounds , we went to play the ularh larh * w/e its spelt *

and they all placed a bet with me .

if i scream , i have to treat them ice-cream !

LOL ! and guess what .....

yes , i lost ;x i scream-ed my bloody way down .

hahas ! darn funny larhs xD

and they called me a shorty ! =='

we played all the way from 3 to 7pm ;p

it was hell-O-fun !

went to swensens for dinner and slacked down there .

by the time we all finished , we're like dead beat .

went homey around 10 plus .

and saw jonelum at interchange .

hello-ed and bid goodbye .

lols . and bus-ed homey .

reached home at 11 plus .

watched tv awhile and sleep !

fan-ta-bulous day !

{ justin , melvin , karchun , naz , fik , christine , pearlynn , jingting }

weets weets ! those misses mans ;DDD

and for today ~

i'm gonna have tuition soon .

19th was like full loads of fun larhs x)

well thats all for updates ;DD

tooties !

2008-06-18T13:39:00.004+08:00

heyho ! morning :D

woke up around 11plus

i had a real good nighty night sleep ;p

going bbq later ;DD

and yays ! TML FINALLY MEETING BEANNIE ;DDD

and we are going WWW tml ;p

teeheeeees !

i miss her so much mans ! like real loads .

gonna pick her up after school and go www together ;p

i'm sucha nice beannie ;p

just pray i don't lose my way =='

tanjong katong primary school . anyone know the way tell me x)

and its raining now .. awwws )';

i was blog hopping around , as usual .

well , i came across something which made me feel very uneasy .

but oh wells . nbrms .

and i came across this picture ...

wooohoo , weet yoo weet .

smexeyeh hair siol ! i want larhs xDDDD

but my dad would probably chop off my head =='

crazy but nice ;p

but second thought .

walking around singapore with that kinda hairstyle .

you'll just receive stares , laughter , snickers and more stares .

but its a diff case in america or any hottie countries .

i want mine to be red head and half bangs would be purple .

hot sehsxzxzxz xDDD

w/e ~-.-~

and i feel like getting more piercings ! =='

one lip , one tongue , one tragus and finish up the lower section of ears .

i don't want eyebrow , looks like sai * no offence * =='

but si irwin say if i pierce lip he won't wanna talk to me anymore

he said this : i don't wanna have friends with such piercings and espcially comming from you whom someone i trust

see , makes me think a hell lot of times wanting to pierce anot =='

ayes , nbrms ! i shall wait till end of year then decide ;p

thats all for updates ;p

wait for the next update tml ~

i feel like an assholey larhs .

i weren't there when you needed .

somehow she was .

well , you didn't ask her to be , but she volunterred .

ayes .

but i'm trying to tell myself to put all my trust in you .

and i don't have the rights to stop her from caring about you more than me .

i do care , just that its not obvious .

i want you back by my side )':

imy and ily .

2008-06-17T21:31:00.005+08:00

(:
since you understand what i mean .
know what i'm talking about .
and i still trust what you said cause i still love you (:
still txnd wansui . you don't dua me okays x)
~~最痛的不是听你说你不爱我 ,而是听你说你曾爱过我~~
现在 , 我只是在等那一天听你说你一直爱这我(:

2008-06-17T16:26:00.007+08:00

morning(:

yes good morning .

finally managed to sleep yesterday night .

woke up at 10am for tuition and i went back to bed from 12pm .

all the way to 3 plus .

okays , time for updates about yesterday .

16th june 08

met celeste at 12.30 at bedok inter .

we trained to bugis and had our lunch .

pepper express and watermelon juice ;p

after that , went to buy celeste's nail polish ,

we took neoprints . ROFL !

yes i know its freakingly old .

but just have the sudden dumb playfulness to go for it xD

after taking went to bugis street to shop .

bought our bf shirts and went back into parco bugis .

the weather was like *&^%@!!@^ HOT .

went to nydc to grab some snacks .

lemonade , ice milk tea and cookie monster mudpie :DD

awe-so-fab xDD

after that , went to walk around those small shops .

saw a elmo lanyard .

its was FREAKING CUTE :DDD

rofl ! and we bought it xD

after me pestering celeste to buy it also xDD

its really cute and gay larhs ! HAHAS !

there is cookie monster one , but i was attracted to the bright red colour .

teehees .

ain't it cute !! xDD

ignore the dumb pink phone . what a sucky phone i have =='

went to walk around somemore and train-ed to city hall .

went to camwhore at esplanade .

ROFL , yes we can be crazt enough to just train there to camwhore .

since there is nothing to do at bugis already x)

its was weet weet weet fun x)

went back around 6 plus .

cause celeste had to reach home around that time .

i went to 108 and slack with them .

all thanks to my freaking sister , pangseh-ed me .

slack till 7 plus and cabbed down to ah ma's house to collect my stuff .

went homey and reached around 8 plus .

i'm real tired x)

now for the photos yesterday .

its only a few .

cause the rest are still in the process of editing .

thats all for updates :D

more photos the tml , cause its bbq :DDD

* hearts hearts * i need more of such outings to keep me company .

well thats all . tatas :DD

最痛的不是听你说不爱我 ; 而是听你说你曾爱过我 .

i'm afriad that mught happen ._.

2008-06-16T20:32:00.005+08:00

the day was fun((:
but now my mood is
totally mixed up , sad , fustrated , scared and i feel like crying ]':
i just , feel like going straight to bed and cry .
more of the scared feeling actually .
i'll do a proper posting tml , with the pictures .
now , its just a post for me to rant .
don't ask me what happened for those who don't know or understand .
cause i'm not gonna tell .

you never change your bloody manner , always the same .
always make me feel as if you are making a come back .
coming back to me .
fuck mans , i'm tired .
really tired of playing games . i don't wanna play anymore .
girls seems to be falling head over heals for you .
you seem to be always by their side .
i might be sensitive , i don't deny that . yes i'm .
and i do see things based on what i see .
yes i know , people will ask me to go and ask to get a clear answer .
but how do you expect me to open my mouth ?
first was your name on each and every post on her blog .
well , i misunderstood . maybe you were just very very close friends with her .
but what about now ?
i see a comment , another girl desperately need you to call her to hear her out ?
idk lehhs , srlsly . i know i sound crazy and sibei sensitive .
don't forget , we are like falling in and out of contact .
of course i would anyhow think . who knows , scully i'm correct >
if we were as close as before , i don't have to worry .
cause now i lack the sense of trust .
when i admitted my feelings to you that night , after keeping for so long .
your replies made me feel better , well also thanks to how people explained what you really mean .
but , i'm always darn scared i'm gonna lose you .
esp now , you are in twl , gang .
you know what kind of people you are gonna meet .
you shudd also know , you ginnah sure got girls jio / flirt .
aye idk larhs .
maybe i'm not good enough for you .
maybe those girls are better , suit you ?
maybe to you , people in gang are far better than people like me .
only a ginnah tao for group .
i doubt you even know i'm ginnah tao larhs .
idk mans , i'm really tired .
i cried for 294 hours before for you .
the one and only guy i cried for so long , almost everyday .
the only guy , i actually cared and even admitted my feelings to .
if you wanna play games like this continuously , i tell you .
i surrender , really . i'm tired and sick of playing games with you .
now is already comming to the end of june soon .
soon enough , Os will be over and i don't wish that it will be .
cause that is when the final answer will come .
and i'm sure to tell you ,
i'm really really not able to handle if things turn ugly .
ayes , now you lend your ears to her .
one day you might even give your hand to her .
ayes , i'm going nuts .
i wanna cry now )':

2008-06-16T10:37:00.003+08:00

goody good gray morning :D
going out later , meeting celeste dearie !
god , i feel darn tired , BUT .
I CANNOT FALL ASLEEP . yes cannot !
idk why ! i went to bed at 12 plus yesterday .
way early , yes i know . darn early .
and i thought i would be able to catch some goodnight sleep .
end up ....
I TOSSED AND TURN FOR THE WHOLE NIGHT TILL 5AM :O
woke up and made breakfast for daddy and mummy with sister .
they went off to work at 6 plus .
ah jie went to sleep . i want to sleep !
but i just can't fall asleep ! x(
mapled , too tired . logged out .
tried audi-ing , keep missing . du lan , logged out .
ayes , and yes i've been staying online all the way till now .
i'm going insane larhs .
pass few days sleep at 3 - 5am .
and i can actually wake up at 9AM IN THE MORNING ?!!!
crazy issn't it . i would normally sleep till late afternoons .
no doubt i think i'm going ding dong .
* gives dumb face *
blehhh ! thats all larhs . more updates at night :D
tatas . i'm off to go crazy !
weets weet woo !